Updates to this post!
For Kindle readers and others in other countries, the Kindle edition of my book is ready and online at Amazon.com in the USA and other countries. Please check the Amazon.com website in your location if you’d like a copy. Here is a link to the USA Amazon website offering the Kindle version:
Also, I just found out that for those in Australia or New Zealand who want to order a book, you can order them through the Amazon UK website and get reasonable shipping to your region. I really regret that I can’t send books down there – it costs 2 to 3 times the cost of the book itself to ship “down under” or overseas anywhere actually.
Finally! The book release date is here! For those who have been waiting, my book, Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light: A Journey of Spirit Retrieval and Awakening is ready to buy, for those who’ve been waiting for it to come out.
I feel so much appreciation to everyone who supported me during this long process with their friendship, with holding space and more. There are no words to express the gratitude I feel for all of you.
IMPORTANT!! IF YOU ARE ORDERING FROM OUTSIDE THE CONTINENTAL USA:
If you are ordering from outside the continental USA, please order the book from Amazon.com – simply go to the Amazon site for your country and order it from there. Shipping books to locations outside the continental USA costs as much as the book itself and in some cases, costs 2 or 3 times the cost of the book.
A signed copy directly from me can be purchased for $22 + $5 shipping and handling [$27 total] by clicking the book image to the right:
To buy from my CreateSpace Store front (no signed copy, but faster to get your copy), click here:
Learning to Cry
“The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.”
~ The Prophet, by Kahlil Gibran
I have been through extraordinary trauma; trauma that warps the mind and makes the soul weep, even when my body, conditioned to be stoic and “show no weakness” couldn’t let the weeping happen.
Fortunately, at long last, I am learning to cry; indeed, I can’t really prevent it any more. When I am moved by either grief, beauty or some other upwelling of emotion, I find myself crying. It’s as if some dam of stoicism has cracked and all kinds of tears are pouring forth at times; tears of sadness, grief, of relief, even of joy.
I can only say that it’s better to be able to weep than not. In the past, when I could not allow myself to cry to the point it seemed my ability to cry had been shut off, the internal pressure of needing an outlet for grief and not being able to get it out by giving vent to tears had me feeling like I might implode.
A New Way of Being in the World
In trying to digest way too much from the “information superhighway” that is the internet, and feeling total information overload, another big insight is making a shift from being an information and learning junkie (I’m a lifelong learner and love learning new things!) to being far more inward-focused and moving from my own inner center, listening to impulses to do this or that or just “be.” I still want to learn as needed, but will be tuning in much more deeply to following my inner guidance on what I need moment to moment. I am coming to feel – and trust – that by staying centered as much as possible, moment to moment, I can be guided to what I most need in that same moment. No need to pile on tons upon layered tons of outer data and information “just in case.”
My wonder questions: What could I learn by following my impulses, by making space inside myself for the innate wisdom I might not have even realized was in there because I’m looking outside of myself so much of the time? What knowledge might be seeded within my soul, waiting for an outlet, waiting for a special new way of listening to see what might emerge? I don’t know, but I’m excited to learn new ways of deep listening within to find out. I will be finding ways to put myself in the path of this newer way of being, opening more and more to intuitive guidance, more and more to moving on my inner impulses as much as possible.
First-time Author Learning Curves
I guess I’m a rank amateur when it comes to being a new author. There is so much more to self-publishing a book than I imagined! Next book, I’ll be much wiser. And most likely there will be more books. Right now, I’m in an “aversion to technology mode” out of necessity to get my body back in shape after 4 years of sitting, writing, editing and formatting. After all the work on Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light, it’s time for me to give some tender-loving-care to myself for a while. Writing the book has been a vital part of my healing process… remembering, writing, expressing, sharing. And I’ve discovered in my trauma recovery work studies that the kind of back problems I have are directly related to the sexual assaults I suffered during my experiences. But I believe in the complete resiliency of the body to heal when given the right opportunities, beginning within the realm of consciousness.
Managing My Electronic Life…
Sometime in the future, reworking how I use the internet, including email, Facebook, and other digital means of communication, I’ll be creating more blog postings, written and video. In the comments sections below such entries, I’ll be paying attention to questions that people pose to me about my experiences, and I may create a Facebook group for the same purpose. I will do my best to address these questions in writing or in a short video.
I plan to do some teleconference calls with groups of people where questions can be answered in an interactive, real-time setting. Because for all the people who have suffered trauma in one way or another who resonate with my way of working with people and trauma, I want to be there for you as I can. If you are a person who needs deeper work in this area, please visit my About Body-Centered Therapy page to learn more about me and my skills and talents in this area, not the least of which is having gone through the process myself.
Posts on this website and on my Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light website will diverge from here on… Encounters with Healing will be more devoted to the healing arts, especially as pertaining to trauma, and teaching about consciousness expansion. Facing the Shadow, Embracing the Light will be for sharing new learnings and insights about extraterrestrials, disclosure and much more about the forces impacting and shaping our world today.
I sincerely hope the book does well out in the world, as of today. I poured into it all my love of this planet, of all life here, and especially my love of humanity and the wonderful things we can become if we can accept our differences and unify to celebrate the hearts and souls that we essentially are, that simply want to love and be loved in return. From my heart to all of yours, I wish you all your highest and best personal and spiritual evolution.
In’lakech – I am another yourself,